My mind is a drifter

My mind is a drifter

Cannot tie itself down

How I wish so much that I could

Bring order into my form

I am a wild thinker

My thoughts have no bounds

Like a wild horse with wings

I fly through varied thoughts

There is laughter resounding

Streams of joy and tears

Flipping through the pages

Of a forerun tale

The little voice in my head

The little voice in my head

Is always a chattering

Words rumbling at every pondering

Like beans in a can

They scream, yell and whisper

Words that only I can hear

Urging me to take a stance

A view point if I have

How often do I ignore it

For guts I somehow can’t find

Fickle is my mind dear

How much do I close my eyes?

I can see it coming

Aware I always am

The want somewhere has weakened

The will somewhere is gone

Build me up I pray

The will to do strengthen

To follow the voice inside me

To do what is to be done

I know I am a seeker

One who wants to take a stand

Without so many answers

Some questions I don’t understand

Procrastination is my sickness

It seems to pull me down

Losing out on the moment

Eventually it is gone

Wish I could control them

At will, or click, or go

But the voices in my head don’t listen

They only speak some more

How do I learn to channel

The words this voice does speak

Act well in good judgment

A kind deed seek

I must somehow admit though

They’ve never let me down

The voice in my head

Are words from far above

One that we all ignore

Telling us what to do

To act right at the right time

I am very sure and so are you!

My GloomyMind

The gloomy weather mirrors me
Days seem longer than ever...
Nights just crawling by
A never ending rut
It’s only a week
And so many more to go
Time just wedging into my heart
How soon will the day dawn?

Stone cold droplets beat against my face

Hiding back tears like a veil

Disguising - is a smile

For the rest of the world to see

My woes are my very own

No soul shall decipher

Tucked away

In the abyss of my mind

When you needed a shoulder you called on me

You always found me standing there

A friend to wipe away your tears

No better did you know

Many came and many went

Used chewed and spat-

And I am left standing there

To get stronger for more

I am tired

I can take no more

I need a break

I need to flee

To be free to myself

To feel the glee

All for a moment

Not asking for more

4/9/2010

For you teacher

I was just clay in your hands

You held me and mould me
And truly now I see
The hands of the Almighty
That worked through thee

Just another day

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Today, like all the days gone by is just another day

Nothing new and nothing much to say

Each moment passed in sad anticipation

None of which can comprehend the poor imagination

The dawn comes on; tis’ supposed to bring new hope

But here the soul weeps, thinking how he will cope

As the moments drag by, the sun is on the head

And when he realizes he is almost dead

He craves that the dusk comes fast

Before light he begins to detest

All he enjoys is the night

Which is a cover to his sad plight

The night he’d love to make it stay

But nature’s rule is against his way

And the hour slowly slips by

There’s non-left to hear his cry

During the night he tries to relax

But instead his mind he begins to tax

Into the depths of his buried sorrows

He is thus made to remember through the morrow

Tomorrow once again becomes today

Slowly and gradually time wares away

The same old stories said once again

It brings no difference but only pain.

written on 10.8.89

You

You are a stranger

A blank wall

Cold

You are so Vain

I dont know you...

A brick falls!

Tumultuous uproar of waves and clouds
Tension and anxiety strikes the air
Feathers flattering at double its pace
The bars of the prison wall won’t move
Hands hit against cold iron rods
Fingers clutch
The air is hot
Beads of sweat roll down his face
Bangs his head against cold walls
The heart beating at twice its speed
How to break the spell
How to get out
The rut is killing
Breathing heavily fingers scaling the walls of death
Hope dying
There’s no light
Frantic
Maddening
Limbs give up
No strength left
Crumbles to the floor
Head arched up tugging at his hair
He is lost…


Then
A brick falls!

And light shines through
Breaks up
Like a prism into a burst of colors
On the beaded sweat
Now drying..the heat cooling
Breathe slowing
Hope soaring
Strength anew
For the wall has now shaken!

As the walls crumble
His eyes straining
Through the light
For a loving glance
Awaiting
A warm embrace
Hope soaring
Anxiety anew
A new wall again raises!

My God!

Know my god! With your grace I carry on
Nothing to ponder and think upon
You I will follow all of my days
And certainly, I know You will guide my ways

How could I tell You what You mean to me
For right up to my core You can see
I love you beyond words compare
And with my heart will always dare

Through thick and thin, good and bad
All times happy or sad
You’ve stood by my side, my refuge and rock
Granting me strength to beat all the shock

Like vintage wine, You grow more dear
With every trial, year by year
No proof I need, no words to say
You're near, my Lord, and here to stay

Colosseum of my mind

There’s a loud echo resounding

The voice undoubtedly is mine

So many thoughts striving its way out

Trying to capture words

That can vent

There are cheers of joy

A tingle from a joke

A burst of laughter

A brimming tear

All

Looking for a way out

Wanting to break free

From the colosseum of my mind